Hello Jared, you must have missed daddy and mummy, haven't you? :)
I wonder if you had seen us during your month's old day when we visited "Tua Beh Kong" Temple at loyang to pray for you. We went by the seashore area which is actually fenced up and spoke to you. I think you must have seen and heard us. If not, I'm sure buddha will bring our words to you.
Today, mummy thought of you so much, and its probably due to daddy. I made her upset and angry again, which I did so accidentally. Daddy don't want to bore you with the details, so I will just leave them out. Anyway, it was daddy's fault, for I should have think before I talk, and I should have said something more sensible. Luckily, mummy forgave me after daddy apologized. I also wanted to say sorry to her again here.
I am sorry Dear...
Okay Jared, think I will stop here, I promise I will be back soon to update you on daddy and mummy.
Take good care of yourself Jared!
We love you.
Happy 1st month birthday my boy!
Tomorrow is your month's old birthday.
Daddy would like to wish you a very Happy 1st month birthday Jared!
I hope you have been doing well my boy, daddy and mummy miss you a lot. Hopefully you would lots of friends celebrating your month's old birthday with you.
Yeah, when mummy and daddy stood at the window today watching the kids play at playground, we thought of you. We thought how nice it would be if we were the ones downstairs playing with you, holding your little hands and guiding you through the play tunnels. How I wish it was true... Anyway, daddy know you are with buddha now, so I know you would be safe and happy. That is all that matters.
Jared, we love you.
Daddy would like to wish you a very Happy 1st month birthday Jared!
I hope you have been doing well my boy, daddy and mummy miss you a lot. Hopefully you would lots of friends celebrating your month's old birthday with you.
Yeah, when mummy and daddy stood at the window today watching the kids play at playground, we thought of you. We thought how nice it would be if we were the ones downstairs playing with you, holding your little hands and guiding you through the play tunnels. How I wish it was true... Anyway, daddy know you are with buddha now, so I know you would be safe and happy. That is all that matters.
Jared, we love you.
written by
daddy
生日快乐
明天是你满月的生日，妈妈要祝你生日快乐。原本妈妈已经想好在你满月时请好多好多人陪你一起庆祝的，但是现在连妈妈都不知道你到哪儿去了？希望无论你在哪儿，都有人陪你一起庆祝。
爸爸妈妈都很想你。你现在快乐吗？吃得好，住得好吗？有没有好多朋友陪你玩？每次妈妈望着楼下的游乐场就想起你。妈妈好想好想带你到那儿玩。妈妈想看着你在游乐场开心地跑来抛去。妈妈也好想好想握住你的小手，一起走，好想好想陪你一起走，陪你走你人生的路。但是，妈妈知道这一切都不可能，也许只有在梦中妈妈才能和你做那些事情。
宇安，妈妈好爱你。妈妈不能把你留在身边是我一辈子的遗憾。妈妈也要和你说对不起，妈妈无法让你健康地出世，虽然妈妈也好不愿意这样，但是妈妈无法抵挡命运的安排，让你才两天大就得离开爸爸妈妈身边。
妈妈希望你无论在何处都能过得很好。
妈妈在这里祝你一个月大生日快乐。祝你永永远远都是个快乐的宝宝。
written by
mummy
Hello my boy
Hello my boy,
Daddy is back with an English letter for you! How have you been doing? I'm sure you are doing great with buddha taking care of you. Have you made many friends already? I think you must have had too because you should have inherited daddy's friendly nature, so I'm pretty sure you will have lots of friends too. :)
Right now, mummy is sitting so comfortably on the sofa watching some hong kong drama. Granny and Granddad are in the kitchen preparing lunch for mummy, dishes with lots of ginger and sesame oil to help mummy to get to her best health. Granny and Granddad-in laws are coming in the afternoon, and will prepare dinner for mummy. Mummy is going to back to work soon, so it is necessary for her to be healthy before working. She's doing well, and daddy promise you I will take good care of mummy.
Daddy is a little bit hungry now, so I'm going to ask mummy to join me for lunch. Do go and have your lunch too, Jared. Daddy will write to you again very soon, I promise!
Daddy and mummy love you.
Daddy is back with an English letter for you! How have you been doing? I'm sure you are doing great with buddha taking care of you. Have you made many friends already? I think you must have had too because you should have inherited daddy's friendly nature, so I'm pretty sure you will have lots of friends too. :)
Right now, mummy is sitting so comfortably on the sofa watching some hong kong drama. Granny and Granddad are in the kitchen preparing lunch for mummy, dishes with lots of ginger and sesame oil to help mummy to get to her best health. Granny and Granddad-in laws are coming in the afternoon, and will prepare dinner for mummy. Mummy is going to back to work soon, so it is necessary for her to be healthy before working. She's doing well, and daddy promise you I will take good care of mummy.
Daddy is a little bit hungry now, so I'm going to ask mummy to join me for lunch. Do go and have your lunch too, Jared. Daddy will write to you again very soon, I promise!
Daddy and mummy love you.
written by
daddy
给宇安的信
你离开已经有两个星期了。。。爸爸妈妈不在你的身边,你会害怕吗?妈妈真的很想你,所以写了这封信给你。我知道这是一封不会有人看的信,也永远寄不出去,但是我仍然希望你是看见的。。。纵然你只是一个婴孩,也许也看不懂我在写些什么。
还记得刚有你在肚子里的时候,我和你爸是多么的兴奋。你爸爸老是在妈妈耳边说:“我们快有个宝宝了。”他一直念一直念,我都快被他烦死了,但是我知道他只是把心中的喜悦表达出来。那种期待着你出世的心情真的很棒,我们每天都为了你而在努力生活。你知道对我们来说,你是多么的宝贝吗?
你知道吗?你在妈妈肚子里的第四个月起,爸爸和妈妈就开始为你添购新衣服,到处去买你需要的婴儿用品。爸爸妈妈还为你布置了房间,房间里有一张婴儿床、一个装满了新衣服的衣橱,还有到处都是可爱贴纸的墙壁。你看见了吗?妈妈有时会走去你的房间看一看,把房间里有的东西说给你听,你听见了吗?爸爸每晚跟你讲的英文故事,和妈妈说的华文故事,你喜欢听吗?妈妈每天播给你听的交响乐曲,是不是很好听呢?人家告诉妈妈,要让你多听故事和音乐,这样你出生的时候会很聪明、很听话的。。。但是爸爸妈妈的故事只讲了一半,音乐也还未播完,你就这样走了。。。无声无息、却让人震惊。
是不是你太想快些见到爸爸妈妈,所以你迫不及待地在23个星期大的时候就从妈妈的肚子里出来了?你知道吗,你真的吓坏了爸爸妈妈。医生告诉我们,他们通常不会抢救少过24个星期大的婴孩,但是由于你真的出来得太快了,让大家措手不及,所以医生就只好立刻为你进行强救,爸爸妈妈才能够见着你,和你相处两天。医生告诉我们,你生存的机会是等于零,就算你奇迹般地生存下来,也会是个和其他小孩不一样。也许是你故意安排这一切的,你是不是知道自己和父母无缘,所以就赶紧来到这世界上见上爸爸妈妈、公公婆婆和外公外婆一面,然后又迅速地离开?好多人告诉妈妈,孩子是一种天赐予的缘分,也许你和我们真的有缘无分吧?
你在圣诞节那天离开了我们。医生为你打了麻醉药,减轻你的痛苦,让你安详地离开。你知道吗?爸爸妈妈是多么不愿意让你走的,但是你的脑和肺已经出血了,我们看见你在痛苦地挣扎着。。。一个只有两天大的婴孩要受这般的苦,我们怎么忍心?我们只好让你离开。因为只有这样你才不会再觉的辛苦了。
你躺在棺材里那可爱安详的样子,真的叫人痛心。虽然你像一般不足月的婴孩一样瘦小,但是脸旦已经成型,可以看见你是个非常可爱的孩子。你的身型也较长,遗传了爸爸妈妈的高度。你是我们的孩子啊!一个多么讨人喜爱的孩子!穿着妈妈原本要让你在满月时穿的衣服,旁边放着妈妈原本打算在圣诞节送你的玩具熊,你睡得如此的安详。你的眼睛从来都没有睁开过(因为23个星期大的婴孩眼睛还无法睁开),你一直都在睡。。。也好,就这样让你一直睡。。。一直睡。
你知道吗?自从送你走后,爸爸妈妈每晚都会对着天空跟你说晚安。想你的时候,也会对着天空大声地说出来。因为爸爸妈妈相信你已经到天上去,因为你是那么纯洁、那么无邪,天一定会把你带去的。
宇安,这是爸爸妈妈给你取的名字,代表了在这宇宙里平平安安。宇安,你听见爸爸妈妈每晚对着天对你说的话吗?你知道爸爸妈妈好想好想你吗?你永远是爸爸和妈妈的心甘宝贝,你永远是我们最可爱最棒的儿子。
爸爸妈妈永远永远不会忘了你的。希望你也永远记得我们。
再见了宇安。
written by
mummy
